New Years Tears: Grieving the Old Stories While Welcoming The New

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I have New Year’s tears.

I didn’t expect them.

December 31st represented the end of my career in finance. It was the job I started when I was 18, making $7.35/hour. It was the mentors and the five year plans and the rejections and the assertions and the decisions. It was the people who told a poor girl from the violent neighborhood who had seen too much bad that she’d never get to more than customer service and shift differential. Who then congratulated her when she became a Senior Vice President and managed billions of dollars. The girl who barely made ends meet and lived off of cans of corn and potato flakes from the scratch and dent store who just facilitated the largest single gift the Girl Scouts have ever received in their history. A new camp for generations of girls to learn how to be the girl she never thought she could be, but the girl she had to become, because you can’t go back once you leave. You keep going.

I’ve been going since the day I learned what happened to the women in my neighborhood if they didn’t get out.

That girl died on December 31st.

I officially changed my title on Linked In to represent the life I am creating out of purpose as opposed to fear. I am so grateful for the company that raised me, the bosses that led me, the mentors who changed me. I am thankful to them for parenting a girl from the worst part of town who had no direction. A girl with a need to survive and never go back. A girl who turned that into a beautiful life.

A girl who is now harnessing those years of experience, drive, and success to make a difference for the ones who come next.

On her terms.

 

4 thoughts on “New Years Tears: Grieving the Old Stories While Welcoming The New

  1. Congratulations on your retirement…loved reading this post…simple and yet so powerful. Happy New Year Jeannette!!

  2. Josh and I are excited to see your new journey flourish into your long desired reality on your terms. We love the photo you used here as well. It shows your personality and knowing how buttoned up you have always been; it is great to see you comfortable in your new skin alongside your natural beauty! Cheers to your new life path, can’t wait for more from your adventures!! We are loving Idaho and appreciate the book you gave him for me, so sorry we missed the signing, I hope to get one on the next book!!! Thank you!!

    1. Thank you so much for the sweet note! It has been so much fun moving into my new life. Glad to hear you are doing well and Idaho sounds amazing. I hope 2019 is your best year yet!

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